I have several options for my drive home from work, my favorite
being some two lane back roads that wind through a little pocket of rural New
Jersey, complete with farmland, horse stables, and homes set back from the road
surrounded by acres of woodland. It is a pocket that is shrinking; the low
speed limit roads are becoming commuter thoroughfares, and on the edge is slowly being eaten up by an epidemic of cavernous warehouses.
Since moving to this area of New Jersey at 11 years of age, these
roads have been my go-to place for fantasizing about rural serenity. Long
stretches of farmland gave uninterrupted views of sunrises and sunsets and a
horizon of shifting colors as trees paraded through the seasons. At one crossroad,
a magnificent, 3-story Italianate house, complete with cupola reigned
majestically. And while townhouses and shopping malls and fast food drive-throughs
sprouted up with more and more frequency, this area was spared. Until now.
Until the unrelenting march of development rolled through, the horizon became
blocked with huge square, nondescript buildings, and roads became home to
tandem tractor-trailers.
Last week, I could tell that an unusually colorful sunset was
setting up, just from the color of the sky I glimpsed through the trees as I
drove home from work. The sky was cloudy but obviously there was a break
somewhere. As I emerged from the wooded area and passed the horse farm, I
caught a quick glimpse of the sun, a stark, flaming red ball with defined edges
defying the clouds that were trying to hide it. A long, dark finger of storm
cloud slowly rose in front of the sun, a perfect dragon silhouetted against the
crimson sun. And then, the warehouses rose into view, and the sun was gone.
Cars around me prevented any type of slow down- no smelling of the roses for
these road warriors. I wondered how many of them had even seen the dragon in
the flaming circle.
The light streamed over the top of the warehouse, then began to
fade. I knew the clouds were thickening in front of the sun. By the time there
was enough sky visible to me the sun, the light, and the dragon were gone. I
felt as if something rare and beautiful had been stolen from me.
I remember when I first moved to New Jersey that “old-timers” at the
county fair would complain about the development that was happening then. They
would point to the street I lived on and tell me that it used to be a potato
farm. The county road that
bisected the town had been a two lane residential street. And thanks to the
giant high school on the hill and the expanded NJ Turnpike overpasses, someone
was stealing their sunsets.
It occurs to me that I finally understand what
William Gibson said, ”Time moves in one direction, memory in another.” And my
sunsets will always be with me.